A lesson learned

Two days ago I got my ass chewed up one side of the wall and down the other.  Who did it is not important but this person was correct.  I am afraid I have lost this person in the future.
Basically I frittered away $100,000 last year.  I got it in a settlement from an injury and with 14 months it was gone.  Never mind that I am basically debt free and that I paid back everybody I could.  I frittered away $100,000.
The bottom line was that if I want to get out of my predicament, I need to do this by myself and make everything right with the world.
The problem is that I am very sick.  I do not know what I have – I have ideas – but I will actually get a diagnosis on Thursday, a big step.
So I have started the path to make things right.  I have not sold my pickup truck although I want and need to.  That would be a great egg to keep me going in the coming months. I have moved to a much smaller apartment.  Saved me $300 right there. and it has its own heat, internet and extended basic cable included in the rent.
But this is small measure to what I need to do. I have to go forward from this point now.  Thursday I find out what my future holds.  In the meantime I need to think a lot about what I can do to survive. 

I have discovered friends in places I did not know I have them.  Don & Rich have gone out of their way to help me get settled in.  I am having a lot easier time disposing of things I do not need anymore. Ken has been a good send always finding the time to be around when I really need him.  Andy Petras is another great guy.  He is always willing to let me use his ear.  And many more as well.  Don’t let me forget Art.  I value his words beyond reckoning.

And now I am learning from new sources.  Greg Pettis has been sending me ideas to get though this.  Last night a couple stopped by and delivered two huge bags of groceries.  They were very well received and even though there is far more food than I could use before it spoils I am sharing with Mitch and making sure nothing goes to waste.

The one thing that I have learned is to get beyond the past and work hard on the future.  Everybody is telling me that now.

I will sell the pickup.  I have to, I need the money.  But it will take time to make sure I get value for it.  I do not want to give it away. The money can go in the bank and act as a buffer.

Pray for me will you please.  I need any help I can get in the next week.  I feel relatively good so that is a good sign, right?